--Not-- Broken-Hearted

Heart-pumping, sweating and shaking. That's what I feel  now. Yup, if you ever feel this way, you must know what I'm facing. Yes, I'm...

Falling in love!

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Well, i must introduce myself first. Hi, my name is Jeanne Seung-Ho. I'm an American-South Korean girl. I'm in my sweetest year, 17 years. Now, I'm in the Virginia Tech High School, the best in Virginia. Anyway, I'm in the last class, as a senior, the 12N1 class.

About the first and second sentences, yes, I am falling in love. With who, you ask? Of course with my best friend, James Hotchner. He's as old as me. He's quite handsome, and he's very nice to me. I like him so much. Beside, I am his childhood friend too.

I really have a good confidence. Yup, now, i have called James to the school's backyard to... say i love him!

Okay, I know what do you think. You think I;'m stupid and crazy, but... Aagh, I will be crazier than now if I don't say my feeling to him! I mean, he never shows any sign of feeling for me. I just want to know! But, i hope he returns my feeling. Tehe~

"So, what do you want, dear Jeanne?" James asks. Oh, he always calls me dear, don't think anything wrong.

"Well, I... I... I want to say something to you," I say. Oh, no! My anxiety increases as he looks at me with such a cute face!

"What is it?" he asks again.

"Well, I... I'm just, eh..."

I can't say anything! Okay, Jeanne, breathe, calm down. It's not that hard. You just have to say I LIKE YOU! And everything will be fine. Okay, now, let's continue what I start! Well, James is still standing in silence. Yeah, this is my time to shine!

"I... Eh, actually... Actually, all this time, I... I always... I LIKE YOU VERY MUCH!" finally, I screams out loud. James looked shocked--err, very, i must say. Oh, no! He will reject me! He will hate me! He won't talk to me anymore! GOD, HELP ME!!!

"Well, I actually don;t know what to say to you..." he begins. I gulps nervously.

"Umm... Actually... Sorry, Jeanne, but... I don't like you," he says with a sorry look. I already down in the dump. Oh, I think I'm broken-hearted. But then, he continues.

"... But I love you." James smiles. I look at him with an unknown look. Yep, a mix of happy, angry and relieved. I don't know what to say, I just...

Hup!

I hug him! Yeah, i hug him! I almost cries. I hit his chest with low power--if I hit him with my full strength, he will be buried in the cold ground. He laughs and strokes my hair with such softness which I have never felt before. But I don't care anymore! Now, I'm a Not-Broken-Hearted! Hahaha!